Friday, November 30, 2012

'Twas the Night Before Weigh-in...

Tomorrow morning is weigh-in and I am not sure what to expect.  I have not been stellar...but I also haven't eaten the equivalent of the gross national protuct of a small country either.
I only exercised twice this past week... which is two times more than the past two weeks combined.
I often wonder why there cannot be some balance between obsessed "woe is me" fat girl and hyper crazy obsessed "live the plan or die" healthy weight girl.   I always say "Go big or go home!"  I suppose I need to redirect my go big thing.

The number one reason I eat is anxiety.  I have serious social anxiety and don't really understand why.  If I look back over my life, I have had it forever.  I am guessing it comes down from the ancestors.  We've got some pretty good alcoholism running through our veins.  I'd suspect that the abuse of alcohol is a great self prescribed anxiety med.  I use food. It works.  It's readily available.  ...and relatively cheap.   It's not illegal.  Nor is it antisocial.

So how do I deal with social anxiety?  Drinking is out.  Drugs are out... well the illegal kind.  The non-illegal kind are too since we are unemployed and no insurance.  Hmmmm... let's see what I can come up with that I know works:
EXERCISE...hard and for at least an hour
Yoga!!!! 3 times a week
Fudge... it works but its "food" and I need non food things.
Stay home.. maybe not really practical.
Is there some kind of aroma therapy that is relaxing?
Herbs... LEGAL varieties ;)

I am going to have to crack out my journal and really get into the things that cause me anxiety.

The funniest thing about this is that people don't believe me when I tell them I have social anxiety.

I am tired.  I need sleep.  Wish me well on my weigh-in... no, seriously, take a sec and leave a comment ;)



Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Dining OUT Twice....

Well, does left over piazza for breakfast count as eating out?
I am not going to count today as good.  I only ate one piece of cold cheese pizza that had three bites taken out of it... I ate a lot of pineapple before lunch.  
For lunch I went to Cafe Rio with friends.  I had the chicken salad minus the tortilla, minus the dressing, minus the chips, minus the cheese... 2 large diet cokes.
For dinner we went with friends to Koi in American Fork.  We ordered so much sushi that they served it to us on the boat!  I ate WAY TOO MUCH and can live with it!  The rock shrimp appetizer was over the top fantastic.
I am just going to assume I ate my weekly ppa and just move on.  Its the best thing :)
My quilting is going nuts right now.  Hop on over to my quilting blog... Manic Marion might be a better name for me ;)


Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Yes, She LIVES!!!!

....but is SUPER FAT!!!  Now don't go being all shocked because I used the "f" word... it's just plain true!
Anyhoots,  I am back on the wagon!  (Please excuse all of the "!!!")  The past two years have kicked my bum.  I still cant run since being hit by the car.  It has really done me in to not have that stress reliever in my life.
So my buddy and I are weighing in every Saturday morning.  I'm down 8#s.  I have a billion more to go :p
I wish I could go to meetings but my husband lost his job this past summer so there is no $$$ and tons more stress :P
I'll write more later.  Today I was dead on with my ppv's... except a blt of piazza.  One bite.  Not too bad for "eat it all" me.
Blogging helped me before so I'm up for giving it a go again.
Please leave me a comment if you are reading along.  It's nice to know you're there :)
Xoxo - Fatticus