Friday, November 30, 2012

'Twas the Night Before Weigh-in...

Tomorrow morning is weigh-in and I am not sure what to expect.  I have not been stellar...but I also haven't eaten the equivalent of the gross national protuct of a small country either.
I only exercised twice this past week... which is two times more than the past two weeks combined.
I often wonder why there cannot be some balance between obsessed "woe is me" fat girl and hyper crazy obsessed "live the plan or die" healthy weight girl.   I always say "Go big or go home!"  I suppose I need to redirect my go big thing.

The number one reason I eat is anxiety.  I have serious social anxiety and don't really understand why.  If I look back over my life, I have had it forever.  I am guessing it comes down from the ancestors.  We've got some pretty good alcoholism running through our veins.  I'd suspect that the abuse of alcohol is a great self prescribed anxiety med.  I use food. It works.  It's readily available.  ...and relatively cheap.   It's not illegal.  Nor is it antisocial.

So how do I deal with social anxiety?  Drinking is out.  Drugs are out... well the illegal kind.  The non-illegal kind are too since we are unemployed and no insurance.  Hmmmm... let's see what I can come up with that I know works:
EXERCISE...hard and for at least an hour
Yoga!!!! 3 times a week
Fudge... it works but its "food" and I need non food things.
Stay home.. maybe not really practical.
Is there some kind of aroma therapy that is relaxing?
Herbs... LEGAL varieties ;)

I am going to have to crack out my journal and really get into the things that cause me anxiety.

The funniest thing about this is that people don't believe me when I tell them I have social anxiety.

I am tired.  I need sleep.  Wish me well on my weigh-in... no, seriously, take a sec and leave a comment ;)



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